Friday, September 16, 2005

3:1/2 and 1/2 + 1:1/2 and 1/4 and 1/4

buttonnosedLui
doeeyedC

curlytop lena
flattop saia

Saia (1&1/2 is half American Half Japanese. Lena (2) is half Irish half Japanese. MommyC (7) is half Portuguese half Spanish. Lui (2)is half Japanese, quarter Italian, quarter Cypriot.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

grab-a-sushi
chic sake pourer
UP AS 4thflr.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

mirror image skylark
bushido cat
eerie UPFC&kiddycat

do no harm

Saturday, August 20, 2005

remembering Ninoy

Makikisaling-pusa ako dito sa idea ni Karen ng Pilgrim's Pots and Pans (Hi Karen!) at Stef (Hi Stef!) ng Stefoodie kahit na hindi naman ako totoong food blogista. Medyo may pagka samut sari itong narrative ko pero sana ok lang hehehe...sensya na po.

Noon pag weekends nasa probinsya kami sa bahay ng lola ko sa father side. Walang mintis yon every weekend, kasi about 2 hrs. drive lang from Manila. Masaya lagi dahil sama sama lahat at ang daming prutas at kakanin na puro home-made gawa ng mga kamag-anak at mga lola lola. May bibingka, suman, sapin-sapin, kalamay pinipig, biko, ginataan bilo-bilo, alfajores(? ginataang lugaw-malagkit na may toasted munggo). Basta lahat ng klase ng kakanin nakakain ko noon at may masarap na tsaa na nilagang dahon ng avocado (yes, dahon ng avocado, masarap!).

August 20 (1983), Sabado ng umaga nakahanda na kami lahat para umalis pero kulang ng isa. Yun pala hindi daw sasama yung kuya ko dahil may gagawin daw siya, so umalis na kami na hindi siya kasama. Pagbalik namin ng kinabukasan na Linggo ng hapon, ang daming tao sa bahay namin. Mga kaibigan ng kuya ko na karamihan ay mga aktibista ng UP, kasama dun si L.Alejan yung na-assassinate na student leader nung early to mid 80s na ka batch/barkada nila sa UPEcon. Pupunta daw silang MIA para sumalubong kay Ninoy at nagmi-meeting muna sandali at nilalagyan ng maiinom na tubig yung mga dala nilang bote/thermos.
May uwi kaming sapin-sapin at saka biko noon para ipamigay sa ilang kapitbahay, pero pinakain na lang ng tatay ko doon sa mga kasama ng kuya ko dahil mga mukang gutom. Ayaw pa sanang kumain dahil mga mahiyain at nagmamadali nang umalis pero kumain din, sino ba naman ang makakatanggi sa amoy ng latik at langka sa sapin-sapin na nasa bilao at nababalot ng dahon ng saging.

Ni hindi ko alam kung sino si Ninoy noon, naman eh malay ko ba, ang alam ko lang gawin noon e magbasa ng Greek Mythology, makinig ng Beatles, at mag daydream na boyfriend ko si Christopher Reeve na feeling ko ako si Lois Lane at may background music na 'Can you read my mind' habang lumilipad kami sa may Empire State.

Tapos buong magdamag ng bukas ang TV namin noon at inaabangan ang news tungkol kay Ninoy at Galman.

I-fast forward natin sa 1986, February.

Nung People Power I at napabalitang nag-green light si Fabian Ver na huwag santuhin at barilin daw yung iilan-ilan pang ralyista sa may Crame, nanawagan na sa radyo si Cardinal Sin at sinabing magpunta na ang mga tao sa Edsa para sumuporta sa mga anti-Marcos demonstrators. Ayun, doon na ako nakisawsaw, kasi alam ko na kung anong nangyayari at maliwanag na sa akin dahil college na ako noon at kahit papaano eh may social awareness ng matatawag. Gusto ko ring pumunta sa Edsa pero ayaw naman akong isama ng kuya ko dahil istorbo lang daw ako, ayaw rin naman akong payagan ng tatay ko na pumunta at baka maapakan lang daw ako ng mga tao, eh makulit talaga ako at gustong makisali kaya nag-isip ako ng magagawa. "Pagkain" ! kailangan ng pagkain dahil magugutom yung mga civilians at mga madre na pumipigil at nakabara dun sa gates ng Crame para hindi mailabas yung mga cannons.

Sabi nung ate ko magbe-bake daw siya ng cookies at dalhin daw namin sa Edsa para may "snack" yung mga nagvi-vigil. Sabi ko naman eh 'bat cookies pa di naman nakakabusog yon at saka ilan lang ang mapapakain natin konti lang di ba? Sandwiches na lang mas mabuti pa. Punta kami ng grocery at bumili kami ng ilang large jars ng Ludy's Peanut Butter at sangkatutak na "Tasty". Gawa kami ng sandwiches, siguro mga 500pcs din yung nagawa namin. Inilagay namin sa kotse at umalis na kami papuntang Edsa. Ang dami ng tao at di na kami maka abante pagdating sa may Boni. Gumawa ako ng sign sa cardboard na "FOOD" at inilagay namin sa windshield, ayun nakalusot din kami sa dami ng tao. Ang saya saya noon,parang isang malaking party.

Wala akong Ludy's Peanut Butter para sa sandwich kaya biko na lang na walang latik, pero masarap din na kombinasyon pala ang pimiento cheeswhiz at plain biko.

Sa mga nababasa ko sa mga on-line news na nangyayari sa bansa natin ngayon, parang sobra na ang sakit ng kahirapan na isinisisi sa kagagawan ng mga pulitikong nagmamaniobra doon, marahil totoo, marahil hindi, at marahil ay isa sa mga dahilan ay malalim na ugat ng nakalipas na nangyari sa Pilipinas noon na hindi mabitaw bitawan hanggang ngayon. Pero sa gitna ng lahat ng ito may pag-asa pa rin ang bansa natin at tayong mga Pilipino.

Remember the story of Pandora's box? amid all the social maladies in our country,corruptions and toxicities in some of our people's minds and rampageous swines (oops..) in our pitiful government, there is HOPE. Hope is good at dapat nasa atin parati ito.

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Sabi ni Ms. Karenkeng itranslate ko daw sa Eigo kaya eto, madalian lang para makahabol bukas Laban Day; pasensya na lang po.
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I didn’t even know who Ninoy was. It was the early 80s and I was oblivious to anything, much more to anything political due to the fact that I had just hit puberty then and all I cared about were my Greek Mythology books, Beatles, and my imaginings that Christopher Reeve/Superman was my boyfriend.

August 21 was a Sunday. My family had just got back from our weekend visit to my fraternal grandmother in the province, a 2 hour-drive from our house in Quezon City. We were surprised at the door because our house was full of young people, about 20 of them all in their late teens and early 20s. Most of them were my brother’s (who didn’t join us on our trip) friends and fellow activists who were there to have some sort of a meeting before they proceed to the airport to welcome the coming home of Ninoy. My brother, who is several years older than me, was a member of all sorts of anti-Marcos movements in UP at the time. He was also a friend and batch mate of L.Alejan, a student leader and political activist during the Marcos era.

My father said they looked hungry so he told them to eat the biko and sapin sapin my grandmother and grandaunts had made which we brought with us, meant to be given to the neighbors and to my parent’s friends. They refused to eat them, I thought they were just shy, but a few moments later, because of the unbearably tempting aroma of the jackfruit and latik toppings of the goodies wrapped in banana leaves that permeated through our living room, they gave in. They were really hungry.

Our TV was on the whole night as we watched the lifeless bodies of Ninoy and Rolando Galman being carried and plunked in to a waiting van at the tarmac.


Let’s fast-forward it to 1986.

People Power Edsa I

General Fabian Ver had green lighted Marcos’order that any one who would get in the way would be shot dead. Because of this Jaime Cardinal Sin called on and appealed to civilians, thru the Radio Veritas, to troop to Edsa and be vigilant and support the then only hundred others consisted mainly of students, nuns and seminarians who had formed a human chain to block the gates of Crame so the loyalist soldiers wouldn’t be able to take out the cannons.

I wanted to go. I wanted very much to be a part of it because I was already in college and no longer the silly juvenile daydreamer me (well…no longer juvenile but still dreamy and silly). But my brother wouldn’t take me along, “istorbo ka lang”, he would say. My father wouldn’t let me go either and ordered me to just stay home and watch it on TV. I had to think of something, a reason, for me to be there and be counted as part of that important moment in history. So I thought of bringing food. I told my older sister about my plan and she suggested that she would bake cookies, lots of cookies. I said no, cookies were no good because they’re not filling enough, and it’s going to be more expensive. I said we should make something easy and quick like sandwiches. After too much convincing and kulitan, our mom yielded to the idea and gave us money. We hurried to the nearest grocery and bought several large jars of Ludy’s Peanut Butter and loaves and loaves of “Tasty” (a brand name of bread). We made about 500 peanut butter sandwiches, loaded them in to the car and drove to Edsa. By the time we got to Boni Ave. we couldn’t proceed anymore because there were so many people blocking all the corners and streets and it was almost impossible for any vehicle to get through. I wrote the word “FOOD” on a piece of cardboard and stuck it on the windshield so people would see it and let us pass through.

A big party, that was what Edsa I looked like.

Two days later, Marcos was removed from the Philippine soil.

I don’t have Ludy’s peanut butter now to make sandwiches with so I just made biko without the latik but I found out Cheese Whiz is a good topping.

Having been away from our country for a little less than twenty years now has made me appreciate and love it more than ever before. I regularly read the online news about the Philippines and 90 % of the time I see nothing but misery. Poverty and hopelessness, that most of our countrymen blame on our unprincipled politicians and leaders; maybe they really are to blame, maybe they are not. Maybe we ought to blame ourselves as well and the deep-rooted problems from our past that until this point in time we still have been unable to shake off and free our system of. I don’t really know. But what I do know is we shouldn’t lose our faith and that we should continue to believe that we have great capabilities to change for the better.

Remember the story of Pandora’s box? Amid all the social maladies in our country, corruptions and toxicities in some of our people’s minds, and the rampageous swines in our pitiful government, there is HOPE. And hope is good, which should be in all of us always.

Friday, August 19, 2005

tagtag

The Parisian wild fox tagged me

20 years ago

I was still in college. On the verge of derangement doing comparative studies of French, Spanish, Japanese, Ibatan, and Bahasa Indonesia’s grammatical structures. But having a great time exploring the unexplored parts of the UP campus with Trufa and Ole.

15 years ago

I was living in California, still on the verge of derangement but worse than 20 years ago because of the pressure of grad school. Got arrested for over speeding and for this I was sentenced to do a community service: as an usher/minutes taker/snack giver in AA and Alanon meetings once a week for 16 consecutive weeks.

10 years ago

I met Luiji; shifted my focus to photography; ditched grad school and went backpacking in Europe for 3 months; got hitched and moved to Japan.


5 years ago

My sister died.

3 years ago

I climbed Mt. Olympus.

Last year

I started blogging

Yesterday

I ate and finished one huge bag of potato chips in one sitting.

Last night

I dreamed that a big mean ostrich was devouring my student’s 6 year-old kid (very disturbing and could be interpreted as if something sinister is afoot, but then again sometimes a cigar is just a cigar).

Today

I tripped on my flamenco skirt while practicing the Fandango and now I have a nasty scratch on my left elbow because it hit my teacher’s guitar case when I fell and landed on its rough edges.

Tomorrow

I’m going to Costco (I dislike going to Costco) with a bunch of big breasted women from Texas who, of all the very interesting things and places that Japan can offer in terms of sightseeing, wanted to be taken to and shown around Costco!?!


Next Year

I am going to see the Aurora Borealis and the Machu Pichu

5-10 years from now

I have not the foggiest

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I'm tagging 5 imaginary friends

Artoo Ditoo
Dr. Silvi E.
Bobby
Tominaga san
Medusa

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go tag yourself, my prrecious ...

PS

following in Just mind people case don't tagging I'm them, tagging the me them:


1) Jun aka "the original anonymous"

2) Karen ng Kapatagan aka "the co-host of Lasang Pinoy"

3) Badaday aka "Scanns Diwata ng Liwasan"

4) Matilda aka "the Maldita anak ni Banana"

5) Manongtek aka "the singer Kuya Joey"

PPS
di po compulsory, kung sinisipag lang po kayo.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

HOPE - there is always hope

It was the topic of our discussion the other day. At first, my students were sort of adamant and had not shown any interest in discussing it but when I blurted out that whoever knew about the story of pandora's box would get extra 20 points. Or, whoever could guess what the story is about would get the extra merit. Two knew.

A woman named Pandora, which means "all gifted", for all of the Immortals helped to endow her, was given a golden box by Zeus. She was made to swear not to open it for Zeus had put inside the box all the misfortune and ills that would beset mankind - diseases, wars, sorrows, pestilence, hate, hunger, and a hundred others. But one day, she couldn't contain her curiosity, crept quietly to the golden casket and lifted the lid. And thence the world became in possession of all sorts of sufferings that we have today (there were none before curious Pandory had let them out).
Terrified at what she had done, Pandora slammed down the lid. But a little voice cried: 'Let me out too! I am hope!' And so, Pandora let her out too. Prometheus, a mortal-friendly Titan had placed Hope in the box so that mankind has something to hang on to and to alleviate the suffering even just a little.

Hope is good, I like Hope.

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

kwentong UP

Nung huling semestre ko sa UP nakumbinsi ko rin ang tatay ko na patirahin ako sa dorm, para akong nakawala sa bilibid fortress, gabi-gabi basta walang ulap at hindi maulan at walang exams nanduon ako sa UP observatory sa likod ng Sampa dorm at nakatingala sa langit at pinagmamasdan ang mga bituin at planeta. Pinangarap ko pa noon na maka-discover ng kometa kaso di ganoon ka-powerful ang telescope ng UP kaya di ako nakahanap hehehe. Pero ang mas na-aalala ko ay yung mga kawirduhan na ginagawa naming tatlo nila Daday at Cacofonix. Kami yung tipong walang pakialam sa mundo noon, hindi nila ako ka-batch dahil mas una sila sa akin pero ewan ko kung bakit at paano ba kami talaga pinagtagpo ng hanging habagat. Ang tambayan naming tatlo noon ay laging sa FC, kaibigan naming lahat ang mga tao doon except yung mga professors; malapit kami sa mga janitors, custodians, messengers, tindera ng banana-q, tindero ng fishballs at isne (kinoyn ko ang word na ito: pinaghalong mais at mane = isne) na paborito naming isnak. At dahil kaibigan nga namin yung mga janitors, may access kami sa conference hall, minsan ino-on namin yung aircon at doon kami walang ilaw syempre baka mabuking kami ng mga authorities e sipain kami palabas kaya binubuksan na lang namin ang isang bintana para meron kaming liwanag. Si Daday nagdadala ng lambanog na super sarap dahil aged at nilalagyan ng tatay niya ng raisins at chopped apples yata, ninenenok niya sa cellar ng tatay niya. FC ang tambayan namin kasi lagi naming inaabangan yung mga crush namin na professors at lecturers. Pinapadalhan namin sila ng anonymous love letters at pasikretong itina-tack sa pintuan ng cubicles nila, sabay takbo pag may taong padating. Yung mga nabibiktima naman namin syempre eh nai-intrigue, sumasagot lagi dun sa love letters at mukhang nag-eenjoy talaga at laging parang nag-eexpect ng updates at kasunod, ang banidad nga naman :)mga nerdy kasi. Mahilig rin kaming maglakad around academic oval lalo na pag dapit hapon na, pinapanood namin ang paglubog ng araw sa pinupwestuhan namin sa steps ng Quezon Hall. Tapos isang araw, nagka-idea kami na akyatin namin ang tuktok ng Quezon Hall (Admi. bldg.), syempre bawal, pero nung nalingat yung gwardiya sinalisihan namin at libre kaming naka-akyat. Ang sarap sa itaas ng Quezon Hall kasi kita buong Diliman tapos puro puno at greeneries pa ang paligid. Doon kami nagkakantahan at nagkukwentuhan ng kung anu-anong maisipan namin while lying down on the concrete beam that connects its pillars. Doon kami minsan nagpapalipas ng maghapon talking about our dreams and aspirations and other mundane and silly things, and believe me there's nothing like it. Iba kasi ang perspective pag nasa mataas na lugar, parang you feel so free and detached and powerful because you are above many things, like some sort of escape (hohum)pati hangin mas sariwa ng konti. Naakyat din namin ni Daday ang attic ng Main Library (wala si Cacofonix noon at may sipon yata), ang daming lumang magazines na from mga 1920's pa, readers digests, liwayway, comic books, old sculptures and art paraphernalias, portraits of statesmen, literary greats, volumes upon volumes of old books, at ang pinakapaborito ko sa lahat: books of Severino Reyes na Mga Kwento ni Lola Basyang, at mga lumang makinilya. Grabe rin ang alikabok, and the smell, my goodness, the smell, musty and old but not offensive, I guess the operative word to depict the moment is 'whimsical'. It was like travelling back in time. Ganoon siguro ang amoy nung 1920's, 30's, and 40's. Hanggang attic lang kami dahil naka-lock ang pinto palabas kaya di kami nakapunta sa mismong tuktok nung building .

Napagkasunduan din naming tatlo na from Monday to Thursday cheap ang kakainin naming lunch: rice at isang maliit na bb-q at isang damukal na atsara (libre kasi atsara), o kaya monay na ti-noast na ini-slather-an ng ketchup, hot sauce, asin at paminta (o parang pizza di ba?), at kung anu ano pang mura. Ok, ngayon pagdating ng Friday marami kaming pera dahil four days kaming nagtipid eh; kakain naman kami ngayon sa mamahaling restaurant, full course ha, minsan nga sa mga hotels pa eh. Ganun ang gawain namin noon. Minsan may ibang kakilala na sumasama sa amin di kasi maiiwasan, nagpo-potluck naman kami sa UP lagoon may dala pa kaming radio casette at naka tune-in sa MELLOW TOUCH or mga oldies sa DZMB. Isang beses nga sa Wild Life Park pa, kinakanta pa namin yung mga kanta ni Sampaguita, hehehe.

Yung dalawa, siguro nabwisit na sa math at para maiba naman at magkaroon ng diversion nag-enroll at sumama sa isang klase ko sa advanced linguistics (language and context), at dahil advanced nga yung course tatlo lang kami sa klase at doon sa office nung prof. kinu-conduct yung class, sa associate dean's office ng college of social science dahil associate dean yung prof. puro kahihiyan ang inabot ko dahil nirekomenda ko sila dun sa prof. at tinanggap naman sila ng taos puso sa klase pero yun pala tutulugan lang, sa harap pa mismo nung prof. ha habang nagle-lecture at pinag-uusapan namin si Descartes at Chomsky. Kahit ilan beses ko ng sipa-sipain sa paa at sundutin ng dulo ng payong sa tagiliran ayaw pa rin magising nung dalawa, mamatay-matay ako sa kahihiyan dun sa prof. patay-mali na lang yung kawawang professor. Pero ang talagang pinag-enjoy-an namin na klase ay yung creative writing course ni Prof. Sikat. Nagsulat kami ng mga maikling kwento tapos diniscuss namin sa klase, super enjoy kami doon. Yun namang kwento sa speech class, ganito nangyari don: magkapartner kami ni daday gumawa ng report at dahil interesado na rin ako sa mental illness noon pa sinuggest ko sa kanya na mag-interview kami ng isang borderline luka-luka, pumayag naman si daday. ang problema walang time pumunta sa mental, eh nagkataon nandun naman si cacofonix, so sabi ko si cacofonix na lang interbyuhin namin ililibre na lang namin ng royal true orange at hi-ro choco cookies pagkatapos. pumayag naman si cacofonix ang venue doon sa isang sulok sa econ. bldg. naka-tape pa nga yung interview eh, very convincing na luka-luka si cacofonix, ang galing mag-digress at mag- off tangent at mag halu-halo ng sagot sa mga tanong. convincing enough na nakakuha kami ni daday ng 2.25 na grade sa speech, mahirap pa kausapin yung teacher na si Josie and the Pussycats pero binigyan kami ng 2.25 happy na rin kami ni daday.

Tapos nung huling semester na nung dalawa medyo nagkawatak-watak na kami kasi medyo intense na kailangan yung focus sa academic dahil pa-gradweyt na sila. Dumalang na kaming magkita-kita pero kahit paano nagkikita-kita pa rin. Palagi na akong nag-iisa nung last semester pero naging barkada ko naman si tito Ding (Hi tito Ding! hope you're having a great time up there in heaven, or wherever :) , isang prof. sa History na super bait at naging tataytatayan ko, at si Lorraine, at si Bobby T. and the brilliant (the late) Silvino Epistola na hingian ko ng pisong pamasahe sa ikot jeep. Hanggang matapos ko na rin yung course ko at mapatapon na 'ko sa Estados Amerika para sa grad school. Ahh memories....